I'm a big fan of New Year Resolutions. I love to sit down after Christmas and categorize my life into a series of new leaves to turn over throughout the coming year. However, sometimes my perfectionist mentality tries to trick me into waiting for something big like New Year's Day to kick off a big change, a Monday to start a new homeschool session, or an after-the-holidays day to start a diet. I've sensed myself coming into a new season for awhile now. I think my return from England is going to be my "grand kickoff", since perfectionist me says one is needed.
There are three focuses for this new season of my life, and unlike any other time since I was about 20 years old, the majority of these focuses is on me. There's a difference between living a life that is focused on serving others and living the life of a martyr. I've been playing the pitied martyr for much too long and I'm not getting any younger.
My biggest focus for this next season of my life is to regain my health, strength, fitness, and self-confidence. I'm tired of feeling like Princess Buttercup trapped in the body of Fezzik the Giant. I've never been the athletic type, but up until my second child was born, I was pretty active playing around in the mountains, swimming, working on construction sites with my Dad. Now I'm to the point where I pass by something in the hallway and tell one of the kids to take care of it because it's too much trouble to pick it up myself and put it away. Just as my mind craves new information in a super-nerdy way, my body is beginning to crave movement and effort---and even the pain it's going to take to get me back to that place where I can beat my husband in an arm wrestling match.
Secondly, I really want to focus on building a quality homeschooling experience for my kids. We've moved so much over the years and the homeschooling laws in former states kept me feeling stifled and uninspired. Arkansas has very relaxed laws and has recently removed even the testing requirement for homeschoolers which allows the parent total flexibility in choosing paths of study for her children. I'm excited to take in this great big world as a family---something that can't be done through textbooks and tests.
Lastly, I want to focus a lot of attention on the novel and other writing projects I've been working on. This is one area where I've told myself it's not my time and have felt guilty for the longing to write. I have no problem keeping up this blog---but it's bringing in money and, somehow, that makes it better than my own creative pursuits. Truth is, if I could focus on these other pieces of writing, I could stop blogging about toilet paper and oven cleaner and make some money off something that is actually inspiring.
I'm excited to begin this new season of life! I will be updating regarding my journey back to health with posts called, "From Fezzik to Buttercup", and you'll likely also see posts here showcasing our fun homeschooling activities. As for my non-blogging writing projects, I'll be updating my Facebook page regularly with those so make sure to like it to see what I'm up to.